Haunting Memories

High School Memories Back To Haunt Me

Has anything ever brought you back to the emotions and feelings you thought were gone forever?

Just when I thought I was free. —The work had been done. My mindset had been completely overhauled. I was happy, confident and in control of my thoughts. All was going according to plan, my plan, until...

My morning routine was over. My positive posts had been sent out as it did every other morning. I found myself replying to comments from my previous quotes. All of a sudden, there it was, a facebook invitation to meet with a group of former High School students, classmates who I was initially so intimidated by. In a matter of a millisecond, my mindset turned back the clock 35 years. I had a knot in my stomach. I immediately felt overwhelmed and so little. ‘Why is there an invitation to a pre high school reunion from an old high school acquaintance? Why me?’ I looked back and the invitation was gone. Instead of moving on, I fell in a quick slump. I pulled back and withdrew. I became the shy self conscious kid and wrapped myself in the bubble I was in during my teenage years. I thought I had gotten rid of those ugly feelings a long time ago. The mindset of being the misfit crept back into my psyche. ‘What is going on? Why am I feeling this way? This isn’t who I am anymore.’

I took a moment and figured it out. I was caught of guard, blind-sighted. It was totally unexpected. In a moment, I put myself as the awkward, uncomfortable kid in my teens and in the days of feeling rejected and unwanted because I was not the same as others. I felt the emotion and frustration for a brief period so that I could understand where I was at. I started to talk to myself. ‘Dan, this is not who you are today. Look at what you’ve accomplished. Come back to ‘NOW’. You are the CEO of YOU. In a matter of a few short minutes I regained my mental composer and I was back on track.

Many of us have felt those emotions at some time or another. If this occurs, you can momentarily reflect on the situation and then let it go. You are not the same person you were back then. Leave your days gone by in the past and move on.

Leave yesterday behind and live your moments as they appear.

Daniel

Enjoy your day!