How I got out of the funk

After surgery, unlike the slice of knife that got rid of my visible seizures,  my self esteem was not something that could be installed. My mental health was in great jeopordy. There had been a 19 year build up of issues stemming from  becoming isolated in my own world and being on the verge of self destruction. I feared associating with anyone. An invisible shield was in front of me. This protected me from all outside forces, so I thought. The problem with this shield was that not only did I prevent my perceived bad from coming in but it also stopped my family from entering my space. 

A number of years after surgery, an acquaintance introduced me to a group of people who made me feel good. They uplifted me and told me I could become successful. These were words I had never heard. It led me to an uplifting system that was positive in thinking and would conditioned of the mind. This system consisted of tapes, books and seminars.

Those who I was in the process of associating with had the same values as I did. My paradigm would be forever changed.

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A little about myself and why I began composing these quotes: I grew up with epilepsy. From petit mal to grandmal seizures, my life was upside down. I understand the stirred emotions and what many experience. However, because there are so many different types and symptoms, I do not know of everyone's separate set of circumstances.

As my years went by and I became reclusive, my self esteem dropped dramatically. My grades dropped considerably which made me down grade my goal from becoming a dentist to not know what was coming next. My high school years started in an advanced program and, within one year, had downgraded to a struggling general program.

I was a recipient for brain surgery (right temporal lobe) at the age of 18. That was my first life decision. Because of my age, my parents could no longer consent for me. I became one of the first 18 patients in the world to ever undergo this procedure. Fortunately, the surgery was considered successful. However, I was left with so many mental health issues. Some years later, I was able to turn my life around. This happened when I started following a system of positive tapes, books and seminars. Today, I share my story and inspire others to do the same. Everything I post is what I practice which is what has made me who I am today. I am happier than I have ever been. I know everyone can also become as peaceful and joyous as I. No, my seizures were not completely eliminated through surgery. It is something I have had to work out on my own. I hope this sheds light on my situation and why I want to change the lives of millions. 

Optimism goes a long way.